I am a software engineer by profession and I have seen some of my class mates and colleagues, excel in their studies, profession and in whatever they do. They are passionate about engineering, they always win and they are on the top of the lot. I have always envied them.
I have also seen some of my other colleagues, who just do their job for earning bread and butter. They take no passion or pride in what they do. Work is just a mundane chore for them, and I have seen they never excel.
I was trying to figure out where do I stand in this two groups, strangely I figured out I don't belong to both the groups. I always wanted to excel in whatever I do. I would love if someone says I have wrote a great piece of code or I have solved an bug brilliantly. Sadly, this has never happened. Slowly the realization creeps on me that, I AM AN AVERAGE.
I hated it, I had higher expectations out of myself. I tried to excel, I toiled and I failed. So does it mean that hard work will not pay off? According to me, YES. Sometimes, hard work need not pay you anything but, sleepless nights and swollen eyes. So why they say hard work always pays?
I figured it now. Hard work pays only if you applied in the right direction. Taking an analogy, If you try apply force on a body, and if there is an equal and opposite force, growing as powerful as you, you will never be able to move it. It was same in my case. For past so many years, I was applying my hard work into something which I have no aptitude at all. The more I tried, the more inner-me resisted resulting in frustration and sadness.
Many people have told this thing, but it took me so long to figure it out myself. To excel, you need sheer talent. If you try to excel in something which you don't have aptitude, its like asking a bird to swim. A bird may swim fairly well, but it will spend its entire life cribbing that it is not a good swimmer. It fails to derive joy out of it's life, and fails to realize the fact that it is awesome at flying. This is exactly what is happening with my life.
So knowing all these, why I am not able to go for what I am good at, and eventually derive happiness? The answer is fairly simple. It is just that I am a coward. I have jelled myself into some settlement and I don't have to courage to un-jell and follow my heart. It takes courage to overcome the temptations of having a secure life, within my comfort zone, even though my heart longs for something else. It is a tough call. While trying to follow your heart people around you may think that you are totally illogical and a loser. It takes courage to stand up to the things you believe in. It takes courage to listen your heart. It takes courage to shake off the security provided by the so called normal life. It takes courage to try something, which your heart ask you to try. but, once you try it and taste it, there is no looking back. This is how people excel, so take out the bird from the swimming pool and throw it at the sky, eventually, the bird will fly and it will find self respect and bliss in life
--Salini
I have also seen some of my other colleagues, who just do their job for earning bread and butter. They take no passion or pride in what they do. Work is just a mundane chore for them, and I have seen they never excel.
I was trying to figure out where do I stand in this two groups, strangely I figured out I don't belong to both the groups. I always wanted to excel in whatever I do. I would love if someone says I have wrote a great piece of code or I have solved an bug brilliantly. Sadly, this has never happened. Slowly the realization creeps on me that, I AM AN AVERAGE.
I hated it, I had higher expectations out of myself. I tried to excel, I toiled and I failed. So does it mean that hard work will not pay off? According to me, YES. Sometimes, hard work need not pay you anything but, sleepless nights and swollen eyes. So why they say hard work always pays?
I figured it now. Hard work pays only if you applied in the right direction. Taking an analogy, If you try apply force on a body, and if there is an equal and opposite force, growing as powerful as you, you will never be able to move it. It was same in my case. For past so many years, I was applying my hard work into something which I have no aptitude at all. The more I tried, the more inner-me resisted resulting in frustration and sadness.
Many people have told this thing, but it took me so long to figure it out myself. To excel, you need sheer talent. If you try to excel in something which you don't have aptitude, its like asking a bird to swim. A bird may swim fairly well, but it will spend its entire life cribbing that it is not a good swimmer. It fails to derive joy out of it's life, and fails to realize the fact that it is awesome at flying. This is exactly what is happening with my life.
So knowing all these, why I am not able to go for what I am good at, and eventually derive happiness? The answer is fairly simple. It is just that I am a coward. I have jelled myself into some settlement and I don't have to courage to un-jell and follow my heart. It takes courage to overcome the temptations of having a secure life, within my comfort zone, even though my heart longs for something else. It is a tough call. While trying to follow your heart people around you may think that you are totally illogical and a loser. It takes courage to stand up to the things you believe in. It takes courage to listen your heart. It takes courage to shake off the security provided by the so called normal life. It takes courage to try something, which your heart ask you to try. but, once you try it and taste it, there is no looking back. This is how people excel, so take out the bird from the swimming pool and throw it at the sky, eventually, the bird will fly and it will find self respect and bliss in life
--Salini
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